What should I do?

Right now I'm in a puddle of tears. Tears are streaming and I don't know how to fix it. I was just at Nicks house having tea with him and Gatsby. It felt awkward being there with only them. It felt like Nick had put on a mask and styled his house only for me. He even moved his lawn. Or maybe Gatsby was the one who wanted it. He is clearly still into me. As he pointed out it is almost 5 years since we saw each other and my feelings for him are almost forgotten. At the moment he said it all I wanted was to fall off the face of the earth and forget all about it.

After a while he even brought us to his house. Did he just want to show off how rich he have become? No matter what his intentions were it did stir up some emotions within me. Although I thought my feelings were depressed a long time ago, I now know that there's still something there. Even so, I suspect that Gatsbys feelings are stronger than the ones I have in return. I mean, I am a married woman now and have to restrain myself, but is it really so wrong of me to wish that Jay had said something earlier? Would that have changed anything? Truth is I don't know, and sadly that might never change.

It would have been great if I had someone like wikiHow to help me out before I married Tom. Check out the link, maybe this will help you if you're struggling with something similar?

http://www.wikihow.com/Choose-Between-Two-Guys